A Desire for Gratification follows the visuals of abstraction with feelings of loneliness and divergence. One part of a longer series of work exploring my relationship with my own ADHD, this body specifically sets out to visualize the particularly lifelong loneliness common to those with Attention Deficit Hyperactivity Disorder.
My own figure is used throughout the images, to varying degrees of abstraction; visually disconnecting the viewer from the subject, and mirroring the disconnect I often feel with other people. My process in taking the images is equally as important as the images themselves, specifically using a view camera and creating self-portraits completely alone in natural or semi-abandoned spaces. The process of being by myself to create, develop, and print all the images mirrors my tendencies to ultimately end up alone.
All images are pallaidum prints.